I will never see the sea again. This sentence, which I once heardfrom an affected person, burned itself into my head andstrengthened the hopelessness in me that I would never get wellagain.

I welcome you warmly and am happy you are here toaccompany me through the most drastic part of my life story. I’lltake you with me and tell you my story of my attempt to freemyself from the quicksand, which only made me sink deeper withevery desperate movement until I was finally unable to shower ortake care of myself.

I rushed from doctor to doctor in search ofhelp until I ended up losing myself and yet in my darkest hours, Ifound my way to regain my health. This book was written by me towards the end of my recoveryjourney and was originally never supposed to be published, as it isa personal reflection of the last two years and represents theconclusion of my illness for me.

I am neither a doctor nor ascientist, my writings should not be seen as instructions or advice,but tell of my personal healing story, which I decided to publishbecause it can serve as inspiration for many sufferers. .