"Yesterday I went to court so I could decide and tell the judge who I wanted to stay with once again. The judge didn't ask me any questions what so ever which I find extremely weird, she just sat there on perky ass, with a dumb ass voice and smile.

So, the thing is that I told the judge that I wanted to stay with my dad and not live with my mom for the following reasons:• Physical pain - she would beat me constantly• Emotional pain - she would constantly put me down saying that I was worthless and that she was ashamed of calling me her daughter. The emotional pain got so severe that I tried to commit suicide because I thought it was the only answer in which I started to think that I wasn't even worth dying so I started to inflict self-harm.

My mother ended up brain washing me making me hate my father which I love very much. My mother also made me lie various times to psychologist and to a judge just so she could get custody to make my dad suffer.

It's gotten to a point where all of this is just used to hurt my dad. She now has been using my sister to get to me so I would change my mind to go back live with her since I haven't seen them in two years and haven't had to contact in a whole year.

I really don't want to go live with my mom because she's just gonna hurt me. I had told everything to the judge and yet here I am here mom getting ready to leave.

I really find the decision unfair since I have said everything there is to say and it's clear who I'm better off with. ".