Part 1FinnLiving as a recluse in the middle of nowhere comes with challenges. Dating is nearly impossible.

Add in a healthy dose of social anxiety and desires most women frown upon, and I'm left with one option- Message the special "Helper" I found on an online forum to fulfill my needs- for a price. Ignoring the fact he's a man and I've never done anything like this before, I'm excited to take a leap into the unknown.

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consequences be damned. Part 2 BeckettFinn is unlike any client I've helped before.

I can't get him out of my head. .

. Not when I'm at my day job, not at dinner with my boyfriend, not when I'm helping other clients- he's always there, under my skin.

I don't know how this happened or what I need to do to make it stop. He's a distraction I can't afford, and there's only one way to fix this.

Don't. Part 3FinnWhen Beckett decides he wants to see where things go between us, who am I to say no?We're spending a weekend together at my cabin, and I'm a nervous wreck.

What if he changes his mind?What if this ends in heartbreak?I've never felt like this with anyone before, and I don't know what to do if he breaks things off again. Part 4BeckettHow do you have a relationship with one man when you're already in one with another? Walter has been my ride-or-die since college.

Breaking his heart is last on my list, but there's Finn, and I can't let him go. Finn is my future, and for once in my life, I'm selfishly taking what I want, guilt be damned.

Caution: Contains spicy m/m adult content for ages 18+. .